I would listen to the lyrics on this song, a thousand times. I cried more than I have in my entire life. I hear the song once in a while and it reminds me, how this got me through losing you. The greatest person in my life, who slowly tore my world apart. I just can't believe how much time has gone by. You've forgotten everything about me and forced yourself to get rid of every memory with me.
It's so painful somedays to see you and not be able to hold you like I used to. To tell you I love you. Which even after all this time, I still do. I hate the things you have done to me... and I loose momentum to fighting against you because of it, but I still ache. I still can't sleep. Sometimes I can't eat... and other times I can't stop. I'm a slug without you.
I don't want to go into this. Not now. Not ever again, if I can do that. I miss you and you're gone. And never coming back. I'm sorry. I'd give anything to be with you. I wish you knew, how you gave my life light. How I can never let go, though I'll stay quiet. You are my soulmate, even if you do not believe any longer that I am yours. You and I are too much of the same, that magically mashed together and made a family.
Whatever wrongs I did, I wish you could forgive me for. Whatever imperfections I had, I wish you could see past and know... just know... that I would have done anything you needed me to do.
I wish this wasn't my life, but you were my life again. I wish on every star at night. I dream of it. I need more time.
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